That's a cheesy face from our friend, Ruehl's, first birthday party. It was only 2 weeks ago, but it reminds me that I haven't blogged in for-ev-er! Yikes!
Since the last, my 24th week has come and gone. The crib has been shipped, blankets have been made, and we painted all THREE of the bedrooms. Painting can be sooo exhausting, so we take the "get it all done in one day with as many hands as possible" approach. Sure enough, it was done in a day. We have been so inspired by THIS room, that we took the color to Home Depot and splashed it on our walls. Now, on to the accessories...
Lil' Buddy (our newest nickname) has been moving, dancing, and shaking what his mama gave him. I catch myself looking down at my belly and spacing out for a few minutes. I wonder if anyone thinks I'm weird, staring at my stomach and all?! Brandon asked me if I feel differently about the actual birth/delivery this time and what he really was saying was, "Are you freaking scared out of your mind?" Ya know, I put it like this. I'm not afraid and I'm not anxious because God has this awesome way of helping me to forget pain. I mean, in my words I can tell you that pushing a baby out is NO picnic in the park, but I can't actually feel what that was like. I think it's a perfect setup, this pain amnesia sets in before you are ready to birth again. At least that's what my experience is. I'm not pretending to know what every other mother feels about pushing her second kid out. This is just personal.
So, reminiscing and dreaming of the days to come has filled a few of my thoughts this past week. There are moments when I just want to hold the little guy, look at his cute face, and kiss his puffy cheeks. There are moments when I think about the bleeding nipples, added responsibility, and sleepless nights too. Thank God it all balances itself out.
Cheers to your week and your thoughts. I'd love to hear them, even though I've learned most of you readers in "BlogLand" would rather read than write a comment. But I'm ok with that, just happy that someone takes the time to listen to lil' ol' me. Tink!
3 comments:
I can't wait to see the new rooms, and meet your baby belly! You are a sacred vessel, and you are a beautiful mother. I can't wait to see what lil buddy is like! :)
Yes, you are a beautiful mother, with a beautiful heart. I love it! I didn't grow up in an emotionally healthy, home-we had issues!!! So it seriously makes my heart so happy when I see kids being so loved so much. And it makes me so excited to be able to give that to Zion and more to come :) God knew what he was doing when he made babies so darned cute and loveable. That's what makes me forget. I could watch Zion baby talk all day long. Of course I had a c section-but that comes with another whole set of pains and aches!
HI! You have the patience of a saint and you always have a friend in Solo and I so don't forget to lean on your friends...cus we got you.
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