Test 1. Test 2. Test 3. Test 4. Test 5. Negative.
Keep holding on. Keep believing. Wow. This is actually not my-doing. I am not in control of this like I thought. It's the desire of our hearts. I know what His word says. And I trust in it. Whoa. Major revelation in these 3 words, It Is Well.
These are a few scattered thoughts that ran through my mind in the past months. Have you ever wanted something or maybe someone so badly, that you could taste it? You wanted to make the situation come to pass, only to be abruptly stopped by the realization that it wasn't in your control? True desire is unquenchable and will stop at nothing.
Test 6. Test 7. Negative.
Florida greeted us with sunny skies and beautiful beaches. There is no other place in the world that I would rather be (He knows the desires of my heart more than I even do). After 3 days on vacation, I mentioned to Brandon about picking up a pregnancy test at the CVS. We could walk to the store on our morning stroll with Eva. It couldn't hurt, right?! After purchasing the test (in secret because of a friend who went to CVS with us), we walked to the playground on the beach. I'll admit, my heart wasn't leaping and I wasn't clammy with expectation. Just being honest. We leave the park and the buzz of my cell phone can be heard from my bag. Kelly texts me a verse from Romans and says it's my verse of the day. Romans 8:32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all-how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things?
Give us all things??? Even a baby? A new life? A new destiny? New thoughts for a new creation, as many as the sand on the seashore? YES. Yes, even a baby.
Back in the condo, I moved into "take test mode" and stealthily waited for results. Plus. 2 lines. Positive. He graciously gives us all things. Ahhhhhhhh! Eva joined me in the bathroom and I gave her the test. "Go give this to Dada." She did (such a good big sister already). Let the dance begin...and it did! We jumped and leaped around that room and filled it with a joyous shout that rang across the ocean.
We Are Having A Baby!!! So thrilled. So overwhelmed. So thankful. It is well.
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I'm up. In my kitchen, eating a late night snack of cereal.
I'm so cold that I couldn't wait to run upstairs and hop into bed. But then I started to read this post. And I forgot how cold I was. I couldn't miss a word. I got so happy remembering you casually telling me, 'I'm pregnant' and I was so shocked and overwhelmed I probably didn't show my true emotion. But let me tell you, I was happy!!!
You are a beautiful, inspiring joy of a woman, friend and mama. Baby moist #2 is busy brewing away in the best belly in the world, and you are already so in love with it (ie, he or she)
So glad you got the desire of your heart.
Love you.
so happy for you!! we have been in a test mode for a bit too:) Still nursing so it feels like it is taking forever.. your post made me tear up a little because it reminded me God is going to give us another baby in the right time. So I will rejoice in your happy news!
WOW! Congratulations! We are SO excited for you! - I have been thinking of you lots. I remember our conversation about how far apart we'd like our children to be and how not far apart :) I kept wondering if you guys were trying. We haven't talked to you in forever. We MISS you! How about your family comes to visit our family sometime after thanksgiving! :) Let us know when is a good time for you! Love you!
More lovies to love! Can not wait. So happy. Talking in fragmented sentences. Love you sister.
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